heimu's Corner

I'll wait.

2010-09-16T21:45:00.001+08:00

Wow, been almost 6 years since I last posted.

As you may have read, it was a poem, I've lost someone dear to me.

Almost 6 years on, I've cried again.

This time, I've no poem.. instead, perhaps I will analyst a bit...

Grandpa

2004-12-11T02:53:00.000+08:00

My beloved grandpa left me not long ago to be with god, he left me abundances of sweet memories, many misses and a little bit of regrets.

Grandpa

Grandpa grandpa how I missed you,

I missed

your paper boat your folded,

I missed

the dinners you accompanied me,

I missed

every jokes you attempt to crack,

I missed

your presence by my side.

Grandpa grandpa how I've disappoint you,
I'm sorry
that I didn't visit you enough,
I'm sorry
that I can't fulfill your little request,
I'm sorry
that I can't be at your side when you most needed me,
I'm sorry
that the disappointments and worries I've caused.

Grandpa grandpa I thank you,

I thank you for

your guidance you gave,

I thank you for

all the memories you left behind,

I thank you for

care and concern you shown towards me and my brother,

I thank you for

everything and every moment you're by my side.

Grandpa grandpa I promise you,

I promise to

take care of mum and the entire family,

I promise to

live my life to the fullest,

I promise to

be like you, honest and a good man,

I promise to

fulfill all the promise I mentioned above.

Grandpa grandpa you've since left me,

Your teachings with be in my heart

forever,

Your presence will be

missed,

I will fulfill my promise made to

you.

I miss you so so much.

I felt pathetic, no matter how much time I mentioned treasuring your loves one. I hardly visited my grandpa over a year. Maybe only christmas and his birthday. The last time I saw him alive, I could see tears overwhelmed from his eyes. He missed me so much, I could sense that, I follow up to hold him, I felt sadness then. He watched my growth for 23 years, he was such a jovial person, he brings joys to everyone around him.

No matter what I wrote, what I say here is meaningless nonetheless, he won't hear me anymore. I'm glad he left in peace, he was in coma before his heart stopped.

In my religion, I really hope he could at least hear my promises I made to him, hope that I could make up all for his request which I can't fulfill.

Good bye, you will be in my heart forever.

Many faces of Lemon

2004-10-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

Double lemon treats for you guys, Enjoy!

Lemon

Listening ear

estranged himself,

mad about sports and computer games

obstinate sometimes

never like to give up.

The real thing, now.

Lemon

Sweet-smelling, sour and stony

Yellow fruit with pulp so juicy

Sorry about long time not updating, but my usage of computer time have been badly shorten due to the fact that my beloved brother became addicted to a massively multiplayer online role playing game (MMORPG). Been doing alot of reflection and planning about my blog, my life and many things.. Just to be a more useful person.

White 白

2004-09-26T03:39:00.000+08:00

White

It's the coldest of seasons,

The bite you had,

The purity of our hearts,

Or just the opposite of black.

The color of wholemeal bread,

The clouds above us,

The pigeons in the park,

The rice we consume.

The color of angels,

Full cream milk cholocates,

The doves of peace,

The light we see.

A poem for my dear Gweng, so white so white. Have a white day everyone!

Hmm.. inspiration? Or just a total failure.

2004-09-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

For the past 2 weeks, been shuttling thru and fro Boon Lay and Choa Chu Kang. For foreign readers, that's a good 1 1/2 to 2 hours trip to work and home. What am I doing during then to past time? For the start, I slept but gradually I chose to listen to my trusty disc man. Even since I brought my FIR album for around 2 months ago I think, been listening to them countless time. Looking forward to payday and will try to get my hands on TWIN's newest album.. hehe

Heaven's Gift

Woke up 5 o'clock in the morning,

Had this run-down feeling,

Reluctant and proceed to some preparations,

Seeking a new day of inspirations.

Boarded the crowded morning train,

Outside seems going to rain,

The train began to move off,

Simutaneouly the commuters began to doze off.

I took out my trusty disc-man,

And myself as a proud F.I.R. fan,

Enjoying myself by humming their latest songs,

My journey continues to march on.

Eventually I reached my destination,

A lady dressed in black appears just like imagination,

Wondering if there's such thing as Heaven's gift?

Nonethless these occurances gave me a good lift.

By heimu, 7th September 2004 1030 HRS

Well, these come out from my real life occurances, almost all. Saw this lady on my way out of Choa Chu Kang MRT ;-) Hey! I'm a real man after all, I do look out for pretty faced ladies.

Grinning gleefully!

2004-09-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

~Smile

Something which warms our heart,

Whatever, whenever and wherever,

People practice it for a good start,

Since the starting till forever.

Be yourself and do your part,

Don't be shy and it's no error,

Go to a nearby school or even a park,

Project yourself as a keen smile bearer!

Hmm, reading back, I felt I made a good start, one of the best, but towards the end, it's still done too forcefully. Probably my style of poetry makes it very hard for me to end it nicely. Time to find time to travel to Bedok National Library to borrow some books.

It's late already, got to work tomorrow. Take care and smile always!

笑颜の法则

2004-09-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hi again,

Thanks for your encouragement over the past 4 days, being busy watching a Japanese dorama title 笑颜の法则, english titled Living Today for Tomorrow. Sorry that I can't provide your a synopsis at the moment, I promise to do that once I get the necessary materials.

But in the dorama, it reminded me something which is mentioned so many times, but people eventually forget about it. Sorry for being long winded to remind you guys, here goes. Smiling makes the world goes round, when you smile at someone, one thing will be sure, that someone will return you a smile naturally. Bear in mind, it's not written in a law anywhere in the world for one to do it, since the presence of civilizations people are practicing that on and off.

No need to be shy, smile always!

P.S. Be sure to check back for the synopsis and I will try to get the mp3 of the theme song too! God, the lead actress is going to dethrone my all time favourite Ryoko Hirosue.. must...keep..my...faith....with...her..... *trying*

Chelsea victorious, Newcastle drowned, what else?

2004-08-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

Had a long tedious day filled with lots of thrash talking by myself. I always tell myself to be humble, but probably the loneliness has gotten out of me already.

Here goes, hopes this will fare much better.

~Dying Nature

From afar,
A vast plot of greens,
Walking towards it,
What an feeling.
Enjoying a fruit bar,
Savouring the surrounding scenes,
Don't wanna quit,
Feels so refreshing.

Looking carefully I spotted a scar,
Because of human's selfish means,
People avoid to admit,
It's going to be too late if there's no stopping.

It may sound very bizarre,
People destroying nature by any means,
Like any bottomless pit,
All are just meaningless talking.
heimu 29 August 2004 12:23 AM

Hmm, how was that? I guess I never mentioned, my main motive in this blog is probably my insane poetic aspirations. But of course, I will mention about how I feel now and then.

Wierd Poem to kick start the Blog!

2004-08-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

~Feelings

Humans have learned to express them,

In many shapes and sizes,

Others rather choose to condemn,

It just too much surprises,

To be kept or to be revealed,

Was it torment or some form felicity?

It's just a huge huge mine field...

So dread, so much of eccentricity.

heimu 27/08/04 10:45pm

Comments anyone? Hmm, it was composed without even going through my very brain, impressive that I think of these :D More of these will come hopefully.